I hope my roomie is okay with my “Pumped up Kicks” Pandora station, the absolute mess of a state my desk is in, and my slightly antisocial tendencies because I don’t see any of these changing any time soon.
“Society can and does execute it’s own mandates; and if it issues wrong mandates intead of right, or any mandates at all in things with which it ought not to meddle, it practices a social tyranny more formidable than many kinds of political oppression, since though not usually upheld by such extreme penalties, it leaves fewer means of escape, penetrating much more deeply into the details of life, and enslaving the soul itself.”—J.S. Mill
I went to my first Rowing practice today. Holy mother of god. I’ve never considered myself, nor has anyone ever mistaken me for being, particularly athletic. I’m so exhausted I don’t even know how to reword that sentence to make it act how I want but please let it go ok. And that one too.
Anyway, I don’t know why I’m doing this other than the fact that I find myself spending more time sleeping than any other activity, and Julia wanted a friend to go to practice with, but I’m attempting this and have become rather excited about it.
I just went back and took a comma out of that sentence in I had trouble with.
And now here is the point of this post: Whenever anyone would look at me with the question “What the hell are you doing here?” in their eyes, I excused myself with “Sorry, I’m really not much of an athlete.” To which they would not respond of course because their resentment toward me was almost certainly me projecting my inner frustration onto others. And then it hit me, like… I don’t know I can’t come up with a simile right now I’m so damn tired, but I came to the realization that the much more appropriate way to describe myself would be “Sorry, I’ve never been an athlete before.” With or without the ‘sorry’ because ideally you would be all proud and ‘sorry I’m not sorry’.
But the thing is, why limit yourself? I don’t see why anyone should.
I just put that comma back in that sentence, thanks for reading.